Well, I think it has sunk in again that my doggie has cancer. I was sort've ignoring it following the remarkable effect of the first chemo treatment and his miraculous recovery from the scepsis. For a while there he was his old self - energetic, happy, bouncy, interested in life. I'd take him for walks (short ones 'cos he is old, but walks all the same) and he'd sniff stuff and have staring contests with cats, foxes, carrier bags... Generally very doggie like. This morning though, he was subdued - still eating still quite keen for a walk, but his tail was down, his ears were down and he walked slowly and without enthusiasm. Still waiting to hear from oncologist when chemo can resume, but in the meantime I have to watch while his lymph nodes swell and become tender, as his energy levels sink. I don't even know if chemo is an option anymore - he's still only stage 3, possibly 4 so he is a good candidate from that perspective, but this long delay can't be doing him any favours. *sigh* Hate this. Love my dog.